Willian T Spears Diary

William T Spears Diary Week four


January 15th

First thing I saw the next morning when I woke up was Rebecca staring at me lying in my bed next to me eyes wide open.
I jumped, scared to death, she almost gave me a heart attack. I was very upset at her... I asked what the hell was she doing there and suddenly she turned very mad against me too. But I replied nothing. I was too tired, my sleep was bad, and I was more concerned with other matters. What the hell, this is my house not hers...Anyway, I was almost late for work, so I apologized to her and left running to the office.  She gave me a cup of coffee which I didn't drink, her coffee makes me feel strange, kind of dizzy.
I need all my mental attributes if I have to catch a soul eater demon free running the London streets...

the rest of the day improved a lot, I just stayed locked away doing the paper work and writing some reports. Also I started the demon investigation, still in secret. Perhaps I can manage the danger all by myself and not depend on the other guys. I find them kind of unsettled with each others recently.

When I left the office at night it was very late, almost eleven. London street were desert, I almost listened the wind whispering. I started walking towards home, when I felt a hand over my shoulder and I screamed and jumped, afraid that it was Rebecca, Alan, Grell or crazy Ronald. But no, it was Undertaker. He kindly invited to have dinner with him at his home, and I accepted, delighted.

At his home Undertaker surprised me with a very nice dinner. We ate surrounded by coffins, and the dinner table was another one, actually. He apologized for the lack of glasses and we used those laboratory containers he had instead. It was okay for me, I enjoyed how calm and relaxed the place was. He invited to stay over and I gratefully accepted.


January 16th

This day was mostly a nightmare endless day. It started with a pain in my back. I´m not used to sleep in a coffin, I missed my bed. But Undertaker was very nice and made me breakfast and I arrived at the office very early, feeling almost like new.

On the hallway I came across a very angry Ronald. I wanted to just pass away and ignore him and say nothing to him, but it was impossible, he just couldn't just shut out saying how he detest Grell now and that he can´t work like this anyway and what if I just don't kick his ass out the office for a holiday or something. I replied almost nothing, he scared me. He really looked like a madman I almost felt sorry for Grell.
So I just walked trough my office and went I finally get there I found Rebecca very angry at me because I wasn't home last night. When I tried to calm her down she pushed me away...against the wall. She even bruised my shoulders!
I sat on the floor listening to her, screams and complaining, and me hoping it was to early and the office was still desert, till I promised I´ll have a talk to her later when I finished work. My head hurts so much...So she left after I promised we´ll meet at the coffee shop around the corner.
The time was near and I was very nervous about it. I found a bottle of old scotch and I drunk it all. So I don´t really remember what happens next. It´s all kind of blurry...I remember finding my way at the coffee shop, and I didn't even remember who I was intended to see there, but I think it was Grell there, also standing so I approached him trying to act as sober as possible, something almost impossible to do. He was talking to another person...I think it was Eric. I don't see him in ages...I went to sit at a corner of the room. Then out from nowhere Rebecca appeared. God my heart just froze when our eyes met, she is so scary. She took me away from there and she said nothing to me, only smiled at me very creepily. Meanwhile all turns and shades away in darkness in my mind. Guess is better not to remember what happened...

January 17th


What happened next was the horror...the horror...

I was glad it was my free day off, because when I woke up this morning, I was tied to my bed. I tried to stand up and it was impossible. Someone had took away my glasses, so I was merely blind and helpless.

When I tried to scream for help, I felt a strong hand covering my mouth with a known strength. Rebecca was all over me, embracing me, pushing my chest against her breast. I wasn't able to breath normally. I wanted so much to scream for help but really it was impossible. It´s impossible to write and tell what happened next. Too embarrassing and annoying to describe.

I was only glad I didn't have to go to the office that day so I didn't miss any work.

I concentrated my mind and scape away from that horror. I imagined Grell and me, holding hands, running happily trough a green meadow.
I feel so dirty now not even an ocean can clean me.


January 18th

Well when she got tired and left finally my savior arrived. I have no idea how he found out I was in trouble, but he did.
Undertaker appeared and put my glasses in front my eyes again and untied me. I dressed up and we scape while Rebecca was busy at the kitchen, doing the dishes or something. Apparently, she is a very clean monster.
I only wanted two things at the moment: to stay the hell away from her, and to take the longest shower in history of human kind. I could still feel her tongue running all over my skin, every corner of my body. That memory made me chill and Undertaker said I had a fever. And he gave me his permission to miss work that day. Two days...I wonder if the office dorks will be alright...I hope so.

Well Undertaker took good care of me and I spent all the rest of the day just resting. And taking a long shower. I scratched my skin continuously with a whole bar of soap and salt until I felt a little better.


January 19th

The worst day ever...No, not as bad as 17, but close...I don´t know how I´m still here being able to write what happened.
I had to come back to my place some day, and I knew that I had to face Rebecca also. So I took strength from nowhere, and left Undertaker´s house after briefly thank him for all he does for the rest of us. He laughed and said it was no problem.
I went to the office first, and to relax I did all the missing paper work. In the meantime, I received at least four phone calls from my house, that I didn't answer, because I live alone.
When I finished heading home I was closing my office´s door, and I swear she appeared from nowhere in the darkness and I almost pee my pants.
I pressed my scythe in my left hand with all my strength scared to death. Her white face sticking out of the shadows was attractive and terrifying at the same time.
"What are you going to do now, none of your little friends are here to help you" she whispered at the distance but her voice sounded right next to my head. She had a supernatural appearance with her loose black hair blending into the shadows like she was part of the darkness itself. I tried to be mental and focused in the fact, that I was William T Spears, a reaper, and she was only a defenseless woman.
Nevertheless my hand trembled when she approached me more and more. "Now there..." I said " We can talk about this as civilized people" And...It is a shame to remember...I ran into an alley away from her. But when I turned back she was in front of me. So I panicked, and...I stabbed her with the blade of my scythe.
I didn't stay there to see what happened. I was terrified so I escaped like a coward. There was a lot of blood, I was covered in it. I killed her...
So I run, but I was too scared to go to my house, I went to Grell´s instead and found him there.
Obviously traumatized, I told him everything. He was very comprehensive. When he realized I was all covered in blood, he let me take a shower and I calmed down.
God...What I did, it was terrible. I should lose my job. I don´t deserve to be a reaper anymore...
We also phoned Undertaker, and he said he´ll deal with all the eventualities that could come. I don´t understand why none of them are angry at me. What I did was unforgivable...
Well at least I spend a time with Grell and we drunk tea together and it was very nice. I was afraid to come back home after all what happened and I stay there till 11 pm, then I went to a motel to sleep, where I´m right now, writing this very lines in you -Diary- Well good night world I hope I was a better reaper...

January 20th

Another silent day at the office. Undertaker phoned and I´m a little concerned for what he said, about finding a lot of blood at the alley but no corpse, and if I was sure I killed the woman. Certainly I am. I crossed her with my scythe, no human can survive to that. I think I giggled inside.
At the evening I received more notifications about anomalies concerning demon activity. But what the hell, I´m so tired...
I took a cab and went to pay a visit to my first suspect Ciel Phantomhive´s butler.
When I arrived to the manor, the place was impeccable, except of course for the smell of demon... A lovely red head lady opened the front door, thanks god it wasn't him! So she made me come in, and then we walked like two hours through several hallways and corridors of the manor. Then she remembered to ask me who I was, and what I wanted there. I told her I wanted to talk to the Phantomhive´s butler, Sebastian Michaelis, and she blushed, her nose also bleed a little. Weird indeed. She excused me for making me waste my time and explained that neither the young master or mister Sebastian were there. Apparently they were occupied, with business out to the city. So I gave her my personal card, asked to contact me when Sebastian returned, and left.

January 21th

I´m at my office right now writing my report about the missing souls and bodies and the demon activity and thinking seriously in finding another place to live. I phoned an agency and tomorrow I´ll move to another place. I hope it´ll be near Grell´s or Undertaker. I feel so thankful to Grell that I bough him another present, red roses and I wrote a letter inviting him dinner. I hope he says yes, I´ll try to be a nicer boss and person to him and the rest of the boys. Well I finished all the paper work and the report writing I think I´ll take a long nap after locking the office door properly. This was a calm day, indeed...